My manager knows who got supervisor and is teasing me with this knowledge!
Tomorrow can’t come quick enough.
I’ve had very mixed emotions over the last few days regarding not only family but work and other parts of my life.
I feel like I’m starting to distance myself more and more again which is not something I want to do with anyone, but especially with the people I’ve been closest with recently, I’m feeling on the defensive because things are going right when they don’t usually. I’ve had a lot of positive moments recently and I’m fully aware that something bad is bound to happen in the near future, and in that I don’t want to involve myself too much with anybody just incase they become the negative.
Part of me wants to shut everything down and just do my own thing, and in doing so, protecting myself from being vulnerable again and feeling inadequate.
It’s very difficult to see myself as a sassy bitch 24/7 with this constant paranoid feeling of something bad is going to happen and someone I trust being the source of it.